I haven’t touched my tumblr account in THE longest time. As much as I used to love it, I’ve been busy. Also, now that I think about it and see it for myself, I posted some really depressing shit. Yeah, I wasn’t the happiest person, and I suppose tumblr was how I spent my time during those days. Seeing sad and miserable posts made me feel like there were more people out there going through something I was going through, and we all had or currently do have, our horror stories. Our dark days. Whatever you want to call it. But I realize it didn’t make me feel better about myself, it made me more miserable.
So I went out, took my mind off things as often as I could, and I’ve met so many amazing people I could call lifelong friends. I found someone who makes me happier than I’ve ever been. And I don’t regret a single thing.
I don’t have anything against people who prefer sitting at home on their computer or anything, but if you’re feeling miserable like I was, it’s not the end. It’ll get better. And if you think you’re alone, you’re not. My family thought I suffered from some sort of depression but it was just heartbreak, loss, and a shitload of pressure. Which all happened to happen around the same time. I don’t get over things easily, and it took me a VERY long time to sum up the courage to get out of bed and deal with life when horrible things happened.
Keep your head up. Don’t always keep to yourself, go out there and take a risk. Don’t be alone with your thoughts too often. Life doesn’t wait for you, it keeps going. And it’s your choice whether or not you want to participate in it, or let it slip through your fingers. Be the director, not the audience.
